Decisions...

I have made up my mind. I am not going to wait for this miscarriage to occur on its own. I am going to call today and ask for a D&C. This will give me the closure I need, and the physical ability to move on. All pregnancy symptoms have disappeared, save that my breasts are still huge, but I imagine it will take some time for the fluids to leave the tissues.

Since it is now Wednesday and the nonviability was diagnosed on Monday, and the spotting started on Sunday I have completely lost hope that this will occur on its own. I am still "leaking" the brown mess that I have been for 2 days, but there has been no change to my cervix indicative of anything even remotely coming close to happening. Plus, I firmly believe that ones HCG must drop before an embryo "knows" to detatch from the wall of the uterus. Not simply a drop in progesterone, for after all its the HCG that is being made by the fetus and not progesterone at this point.

I have also decided that if we ever achieve another pregnancy with this doctor that this is how it will be handled. I am going to wait two full weeks after my cycle should have begun to test at home. Then I am going to bypass his office completely. I will contact a delivering OB/GYN, and not utilize the RE's services for any early prenatal care. I appreciate his "hands off" approach to ultrasounds and things during the follicular phase, and instead relying on blood work before subjecting you to one last ultrasound...but when you change from infertility patient to pregnancy the care needs to change.

If it weren't for the fact that I have run out of RE's in the Pittsburgh area to consult with I would be tempted to change yet again...but this doctor did get us pregnant on the first try...so in my mind we are in the middle of the 9th inning, not at the bottom of it...