Surreal...

I have no idea how many days past ovulation I am! Ok, let me think for a second...triggered on Sunday...ovulation either Monday or Tuesday...so we are looking at it being Thursday...so either 3 dpo or 2 dpo. Hmf. Surreal. Time seems to be moving in slow motion! I remember back to the days when I first started on this roller coaster. Not the Clomid days, those were stupid experiments destined for failure. No, I am talking the days when I would take the elevator to the third floor of the Jones Institute and extend my arm for blood letting.

I was hopeful, but yet I had no hope. Does that make sense? It was almost as if I entered each cycle counting the days till the next one. Oh sure I was dilligent in making sure I the Follistim entered my body, and that the progesterone suppository was placed just so. Yet I don't think I ever entered a 2ww with "knowledge" that "hey this worked" That sounds so bizare as I type out the words doesn't it? I can't put my finger on it now, but in all seriousness it was true. Even that mishapped cycle in September/October I had little hope. Heck, I don't think I even ovulated.

Yet now here I sit, KNOWING I ovulated. Yesterday Jake said I feel like a furnace that is how much heat I am radiating. This is new. I have never had to strip down to nothing to sleep in March in Western Pennsylvania! For "kicks" I took my temperature today. I was HOPING for a 98.2 just enough to indicate that I was above my normal 97.9 yet I pulled down a 98.6! I slept naked with a window open for goodness sake! My nipples hurt and if I push so do my breasts...and I am NOT on any progesterone supplimentation! 5 days post trigger shot too folks!

If you could see me you would think I won the lottery. I have no idea if I am actually that *p* word...but at the same time I just know that I am. Its surreal to be this happy without the benefit of knowing...